Writings On My Wall

Full Of Fear
When I was young I was so full of fear
I hid behind anger, held back the tears
It was me against the world, I was sure that I'd win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins

I grew up fast, I grew up hard
Something was wrong from the very start
I blamed you instead
And made sure I was heard

And they tried to warn me of my evil ways
But I couldn't hear what they had to say
Self destruction grabbed me again
All I need's a new way to begin

I got society's blood running down my face
Somebody help me get outta this place
How could someone's bad luck last so long
Until I realized that I was wrong

--SG--

Under Her Clothes
Underneath her clothes my mind loomed
Freshman thoughts creating the doomed
Under her clothes I thought I should be
Come to find out her soul was more for me.

Fell in love with her soul, worked my way out
That's the way it's supposed to be without a doubt
Just like everyone says, beauty comes from within
Who would have thought the story would come to an end.

Though I fail to believe what's proven from the past
In the game of love nice guys finish last
Conventional wisdom tells me how I need to begin
If I weren't a nice guy there would have been no end.

I can change my ways, be someone I'm not
Hope you still care, hope you haven't forgot
But it's too late now, time to move on
Doesn't matter what I do, you're already gone.

Just Think Of Him As Resting
Don't think of him as gone away
His journey's just begun
Life holds so many facets
This earth is only one.

Just think of him as resting
From the sorrows and the tears
In a place of warmth and comfort
Where there are no days and years.

I know of all the joy he feels
While watching from above
He knows that we had our tears
Stemmed from eternal love

Think how he must be wishing
That we could know today
How nothing but our sadness
Can really pass away.

And think of him as living
In the hearts of those he touched...
For nothing loved is ever lost
And he was loved so much.

Rest In Peace Dad...
You will never be forgotten.

How would that have really been?

You wanted more than I could love
More than I could offer
The harder you would shove
You wanted more than I could give
More than I could handle
In a life that I can't live 
                                                --SG--

All I Want
Here we are just sitting here knowing we're all alone
My Timex looking at me saying its time to move on
You know what I want and baby I know what you need
So stop hesitating girl and give your love to me

All I really want is to love you baby
Make your body feel like heaven baby
Just wanna satisfy you baby 
It’s all I want baby, that’s all I want

Just wanna give you something baby
Just wanna keep you company baby
Just wanna make you happy baby 
It’s all I want baby, that’s all I want

Thought of fire places burning logs just right
To whom it may concern you wont be coming home tonight
Body parts that he couldn’t kiss, girl I will kiss for you
Just put the CD on repeat and let me pamper you

All I really want is to love you baby
Make your body feel like heaven baby
Just wanna satisfy you baby 
It’s all I want baby, that’s all I want
                                                         --SG--

Too Much?
      I sit thinking, staring wondering 
      how did 2 people so close drift like that 
      that's a lot of stuff to swing under the bridge
      
was it too much past or not enough 
      was I too harsh or not enough 
      was one of us not in the right mindset

      hell bent on you
      you fell out of love
      was it too much or not enough

      did your friends get your decisions
      was it your own indecision
      cuz it feels like incisions into my soft and private sides
      to lie and cheat brings me to wonder of your feat
      
in the end your betray caused the fray 
      the coldest rain of pain as I tried to look away 
      I vowed never to see you and never to love again
      never to make any mistake I would ever make again
      but yeah I'm still healing and the feelings back again
      
so I'm feeling I need a friend, so what if its our end
      but someday I have to ask you
      was it too much or not enough?

                                                                  --SG--

      Goodbye
I guess this means goodbye
      It's over now
      It's time to say goodbye

      Is there a reason why our love could not last?
      I ask was it too strong for you to hold onto my way?
      I thought we had a master plan
      But it takes a stronger man to let you walk away
      Than to watch our love fade away

      I often wonder how that I
      Did not cheat or did not lie
      I hope you know how hard I tried
      But it's over for now
      It's time to say goodbye

      I can't believe how suddenly things change
      Yesterday we were in love but today all I feel is agony
      Day and night I tried
      Deep inside to work things out
      But in my heart I knew
      I still had my doubts

      I thought we made a symphony
      It's over now no more harmony
      I prayed so hard for love to fly
      It's time to say goodbye

      It's time to say goodbye
      We've already said goodbye
                                                     
                                                      --SG--

Separated
If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Maybe we're better off separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Maybe we're better off separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go?

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Does all this mean we're better off separated?

--SG--

How Would You Feel?
How would you feel...
If you gave someone your heart
And then get accused of not doing so?

How would you feel...
If you were as patient as humanly possible with someone
To give them what they want
Then get accused of being in it for all the wrong reasons?

How would you feel...
If you gave someone your heart
And they ripped it up and handed it back?

How would you feel...
If you were abandoned
Because you were flawed?

How would you feel...
If you gave someone everything you had
Then get told they've found someone else
Now you need to leave?

How would you feel...
If you thought you found everything you would ever need
Only to be deserted because you have some imperfections?

How would you feel...
If you invested two years of your life into someone
And then got crushed with four words?

Can't Hold On
Can't you see we were meant to be
Down for each other for eternity
Let me know if you're out of my life
Don't hang on to my heart and say bye-bye
I used to be the one that you could call on
Now you like to play around, hit me up on what went wrong

I'm not gonna hold on to your love boat
If chances are I'm gonna fall overboard

Memories like the corner of my mind
You know just what to do to make my love come down
I know just what you need, but you don't come around
Let me know if you're out of my life
Don't hang on to my heart, say bye-bye
I used to be the one that you could call on
Now you like to play around, hit me up on what went wrong

To Be Happy
Everyday and night I pray
Love will swing you back this way
Life without you here with me
Ain't the same without you and me

Baby hear me, I never meant to hurt you
Just wish you would come and talk to me
Let me know what's on your mind
Every time I see you
You're running from me all the time

Baby hear me, I never meant to hurt you
I only wanted you to be happy
You to have the best of things
To be down with me, to be smilin''''

You're giving me the run-around
Thought our love was going down
Baby don't you know
That I'm down until the day I die

Baby hear me, never meant to hurt you
Now you know I'd never do anything to hurt you
'Cause baby I loved you

--SG--